Being A Fixer

I know this guy who "lives to serve."

Personally I like to "fix things."  I want things to work, and I believe I am the one who should make things work.  I am the one who can solve conflicts.  I don't know if "fixing things" is equivalent  to service, but deep in my heart, I want to fix things.  I want to make things right.

But the problem is I need someone or something to fix me.  I need someone to forgive me for all of those times that I broke something, for all of those times when I thought I was fixing, when I was really breaking.  I need someone to lift me from the pit of this worldly existence.  I need someone to help this brokenness inside of me to start healing.  And I need it bad, real bad.

I need the great I AM.  I need the peace of Jesus Christ.  It is one thing to serve. It is another to live a life of love and be faithful to the real fixer, to the one who served us so well on Calvary.

 

A Couple Of The Many Times That The Heavenly Father Has Reminded Me Of Who Really Is Boss

1.  I go to Kroger after church.  I buy a case of diet Big K soda.  It is rather late.  I ask my wife, "Do I go home?"  I ask my mom, "Do I go home?"  They both say "yes, go home."  I know I should go home.  The case of soda busts as I am walking up the stairs to my office.  Four or five cans burst and spill everywhere.  I make a mess by not listening to Him.

2.  I am in the office.  It is late.  Do I go home?  Do I stay?  I have an idea that I need to stay, get a few more things done before I leave.  Only the TV waits for me in my apartment.  I flip a coin.  Staying is heads.  The apartment is tails.  It comes up tails two times in a row.  I pack up.  I shut down my computer which has updates to install.  I am ready to go.  I look out the window.  It starts to pour.  The much needed rain proves that He is in control.

I have a long way to go in my life.  I have a lot of things to learn.  I have to learn to live a life of repentance.  I have to learn to live a life for Christ.  It isn't easy, but He is in control.  If I remain faithful, "walk upright," and pray, He'll lead me.

The Jefferson Bible

I've had always these conflicted thoughts about The Jefferson Bible (The Life and Morals of Jesus of Nazareth).  It was one of those readings that pushed me to be baptized.  But the underlying "cut and paste" mentality behind the book worries me.  I have no idea exactly what Jefferson's intentions were, but Jesus' miracles have meaning too.

The other day an elder gave a lesson where he went through Matthew and just recounted the miracles.  As a believer, it was a powerful.  But as a non-believer, I don't think it would have been powerful.  I needed the cold deism of The Jefferson Bible to see what Jesus was really about, what He really had to say.

I guess it gets back to the "what should be" versus "what is."  Yes, we should take the Bible as a whole.  But many people want rationality.  The desire for rationality is a fact.  Maybe it shouldn't, but if The Jefferson Bible gets one closer to Christ, then I am hesitant to condemn it.