Driving Home Listening To Radio Preachers

I am driving home this evening so I can get up at 5:00AM and go to the city to play around with data. So I can finish something I started. Something I started with the decent intentions. Something that has become an albatross. Something that causes me great pain.

And this preacher is on the radio, and he is preaching about how we cling to the "filth" of life instead of trusting in Christ and clinging to the peace and good things he gave us.

And the greatest of these is love (1 Corinthians 13:13).

I realize that I cling to "that jealously, that bitterness, that ridicule." I cling to the filth while I let go of the love that makes us truly complete.

I realize that this has to be the best year of my life. I got married to woman who is so full of love that even though I deeply hurt her with my obsession with filth, she still loves me. I have a wonderful family who lets me stay with them when I have to go to the city. I have friends who talk me off cliffs and do "give a damn" about me. I have love all around me. All I have to do is accept it. All I have to do is acknowledge it.

All I have to do is "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind..." (Luke 10:27).

It isn't easy. I will fail. I will have to ask for forgiveness. But it is much better than the filth.